I hate people. I hate jerks. I hate those who pick on weak little girls with no self esteem so they can get some kind of laugh. I hate those people who will laugh at you for doing something you love. I hate high schoolers. I hate douche bags. I hate bullies. I hate everyone in my fucking school!
I wish people could see how much they fucking hurt me… I wish that the second i feel hurt they could automatically feel my pain too. Maybe, bullying would stop then. But no, if someone sees a girl like me who’s smart and likes to be silly and smile they have to bring her down so they can laugh at someone and feel so fucking high and mighty.
THIS IS WHY I CAN’T MAKE ANY FUCKING FRIENDS! I’M TOO WORRIED THEY WILL LAUGH AT ME TOO! NO ONE UNDERSTANDS!
People who are actually nice to me say I’m amazing and talented. Well, now i feel like nothing. I wanna feel like i’m something, but how can I if everytime i do something i enjoy or like someone will laugh at me?
I don’t want to go to school anymore. Congrats, douche bags you got me. You made me feel even worse about myself, I didn’t even think that was possible. So way to go assholes, you should get a fucking medal.
…and mine was over such stupid things, too. fucking middle school. *frowns*
For being tall and sensitive when I was…
For being a nerd, for being short… I was called a lesbian even though I wasn’t, because of who I hung out with too. Then I stopped caring.
^See the above. And yet, the only people who hung out with me were two to three guys. :/
I was also teased for having asthma and allergies—always needing tissues, for breathing through my mouth. I had kids tell me they’d rather me die then listen to me.
I got made fun of for my hair color. I got made fun of for…maturing sooner than most people.
I got made fun of for my singing.
Essentially, there wasn’t anything I -wasn’t- made fun of. I had been punched in the eye and back one, I had been asked out in order to be humiliated, I had people open up the bathroom door while I was going to embarrass me and even look over the sides and tease me that way if I was taking “too long”.
And people wonder why I’m so screwed up now.
I was bullied for being short, having one blind eye and being good at school. Really, I never did anything to call for their attention. They hit me and pushed me off the chair, and wrote stuff in my desk, and made insulting cartoons of me, and trapped me in the lockers, or just started singing insults and dancing, standing on their desks.
They laughed at my hair, my clothes (even if it was the same darn uniform), my clumsiness. They hid my stuff. And they laughed the hardest every time I made a mistake in class, even the littlest thing. If my tests didn’t have a perfect grade, someone would take it and laugh, and point at me.
I know it’s not as bad as many other cases, but it still made me into the almost-misanthropist I am now. I had no people I could talk to without them saying rude stuff to me for like… 2 years? Maybe a bit less.
But I thank those bad moments too. I wouldn’t be who I am without people teaching me that the world sucks.
started at age 2
I was never like directly bullied, it was always behind my back. In elementary school i knew all the mexican kids were talking about me in spanish so i couldn’t understand, but i knew they were cuz they always look at me and snicker. I get called names all the time too (not as much know though), never to my face though but everyone thought i was strange and called me weird or freak or smarty-pants. Names hurt you know? I’ve never been punched or push out of chairs or anything (though i have been shoved against my locker and jumped over when i get my books out then being laughed at) but it doesn’t have to be physical to be bullying. Being called names and being laughed at hurts just as bad.
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Day 5: A Letter to an inanimate object that you hate
Please stop randomly turning on all the time when i finally get out of my room to watch TV. It’s very annoying when i’m trying to enjoy watching spongebob or play video games when you make the room so cold. And Your buddy the AC isn’t helping much either! Now if you would kindly stop making me cold all hours of the day, we could work things out. But, until then you suck >:C kthxbye
that’s how i”m feeling right now :( i’ve been trying so hard to feel pretty, to look pretty, to care about makeup and all sort of other crap so you can look at me and see that i’m pretty… But, i barely see you even though we’re best friends and even when we’re together I don’t think you look at me the way i look at you… What can i do to get you to really look at me? Why do i keep trying to impress you? You’ve seen me at my worst, I’ve known you for almost 10 years now. But still, i want you to see that I’m not the little girl you knew in elementary school. I want you to feel the same way i feel about you….
5 years for a little crush? That’s not a crush anymore… I thinks it blooming to something more. And when i think of you my stomach hurts and i dream of what could be, and dream of how it could end. As much as i want to finally ask you, I’m too afraid that we might lose our friendship…
I want to ask you “Do you like me?” but i’m too afraid you’ll laugh at my face… I want to ask you if you think I’m pretty, because i wanna know if some boy will ever think that.. but i’m too afraid that you have other, prettier girls on your mind… I know I’m not as pretty as some as your other friends…
So I’ll keep trying to impress you even though it’s not working and hope that maybe, just maybe, we could become something… But until then, I’m gonna keep quiet to keep what we have so far…
This year JULY has 5 Fridays, 5 Saturdays and 5 Sundays. This happens once every 823 years. This is called money bags. So Copy this to your status and money will arrive within 4 days. Based on Chinese Feng Shui, the one who does not copy, will be without money. Figured I'd pass this on!!